人生易老天難老，歲歲重陽，今又重陽，戰地黃花分外香。

一年一度秋風勁，不似春光，勝似春光，寥廓江天萬里霜。

陳啟禮和易先生

從陳啟禮和易先生看兩岸政治黑白恩仇糾葛
台 灣“竹聯幫”的“精神領袖”陳啟禮4日晚間在香港病故。香港明報今日刊發評論說，陳啟禮在港病逝之日，正是《色，戒》在台熱映之時，兩宗不相干的事情，從 某個歷史側面看，卻都跟政治黑白和愛恨恩仇有著極復雜的瓜葛糾纏。替21世紀的海岸兩岸喚回了非常濃厚的“歷史意識”。

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陳啟禮在港病逝之日，正是《色，戒》在台熱映之時，兩宗不相干的事情，從某個歷史側面看，卻都跟政治黑白和愛恨恩仇有著極復雜的瓜葛糾纏。 特務，黑幫，政客；家國，酷刑，暗殺，現實悲劇與虛構情節穿插滲透，新聞傳媒與民間輿論助瀾炒作，像隔世招魂般，替21世紀的海岸兩岸喚回了非常濃厚的 “歷史意識”。

有“鴨霸子”外號的陳啟禮于1984年從台灣赴美槍殺作家江南，對于此事，台港傳媒回顧甚多，但鮮有人提及的是，鴨霸子此舉不僅替自己和在台兄弟惹出 了大麻煩，其實亦連累了花旗國的其他華人社團，因為FBI于“江南案”後覺得沒面子，立刻啟動訂立于1970年代的“反黑法”（Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organizations，通稱 RICO）機制，嚴打華人黑幫，聯邦調查局、國稅局、移民局、緝毒局、海關等部門連手出擊，大洗太平地，把各州各市的唐人街殺個雞犬不寧。別的不說，僅是 1985年即把20多名鬼影幫分子送上法庭兼極速判刑，刑期最高者為30年。

江南之死，是因為撰寫了《蔣經國傳》，台灣法院認定黑幫老大是直接凶手、情報局長是幕後主謀，但陳啟禮的兄弟“白狼”張安樂曾在美國公布陳啟禮的錄音 自白，直指蔣經國的二子蔣孝武才是下令殺人的“大老板”。陳啟禮的自白英譯詳載于美國名記者David Kaplan的《Fire of the Dragon ︰ Politics, Murder, and the Kuomintang》書內，該書亦指出，張安樂于爆料後接到陳父從台灣打來的長途電話，氣急敗壞地說，“最高當局”表示如果竹聯幫再把暗殺矛頭指向“蔣 太子”，陳啟禮別希望有命踏出牢房，竹聯幫因此立轉低調；而同時，台灣官方在香港《九十年代》月刊上公布所謂“江南七封信”，指江南為美台之間的“雙面間 諜”，對不起“中華民國”，對不起被共產黨打跑到台灣的國民黨，意欲打擊死者名聲，讓所有人相信他是“人人得可誅”之“亂臣賊子”。國民黨這幾招，耍得 狠，耍得髒，但確收一時之效，至少，保住了蔣太子。

就中國政治而言，香港算是“邊緣”，但又一直發揮著極微妙的關鍵力量。孫中山不是學醫于此、也自謂在香港開展了他的革命思想嗎？康有為、梁啟超不也是 在香港深切領悟到世界之大、西洋之奇嗎？這是正面的啟蒙。至于“負面”，汪精衛在成立偽政府前的媚日“艷電”不也是在香港發表嗎？即連最近備受討論的蔣介 石私房日記，不是顯示這個道貌岸然的大獨裁者，來到香港，最喜歡做的其中一件事原來是嫖妓尋歡嗎？

連台灣過氣教父陳啟禮也在香港病死，但他絕非在香港逝死的第一個中國黑幫大哥大。杜月笙就是在香港斷氣的，他于1949年移居此，晚年多病，病痛中仍 然像昔日一樣迷听命相之學，一些相士投其所喜，故意說些“杜公尚有10年大運可行”之言，即可從他手里又騙走不少鈔票打賞。當時有一位外號“趙神仙”的旅 美華僑，來港行逛，被朋友找去替杜月笙佔算吉凶，他沒有當面對杜月笙說些什麼，然而事後寫信告訴朋友，他看見了杜月笙的靈魂飛出體外，深信一代大佬命不久 矣，應難度過1951年的陰歷七月十五日。 杜月笙去世之日，是陽歷8月16日，亦即陰歷七月十四日，下午4時50分，遺願之一是“把我帶回上海，落葬在高橋，我出生的地方”。 就像陳啟禮死了仍要歸葬台灣，香港雖好，對許許多多人來說，卻終究只是暫留之所。

君知妾有夫 贈妾雙明珠
感君纏綿意 繫在紅羅襦
身無彩鳳雙飛翼 心有靈犀一點通
知君用心如日月 恨不相逢未嫁時
曾經滄海難為水 除卻巫山不是雲

勿念經

立一念 信是法 隨所聞 念其方 宜一念 斷諸想 立定信 勿狐疑 精進行 
勿懈怠 勿起想 有與無 勿念進 勿念退 勿念前 勿念後 勿念左 勿念右 
勿念無 勿念有 勿念遠 勿念近 勿念痛 勿念痒 勿念飢 勿念渴 勿念寒 
勿念熱 勿念苦 勿念樂 勿念生 勿念老 勿念病 勿念死 勿念身 勿念命 
勿念壽 勿念貧 勿念富 勿念貴 勿念賤 勿念色 勿念欲 勿念小 勿念大 
勿念長 勿念短 勿念好 勿念醜 勿念惡 勿念善 勿念瞋 勿念喜 勿念坐 
勿念起 勿念行 勿念止 勿念經 勿念法 勿念是 勿念非 勿念捨 勿念取 
勿念想 勿念識 勿念斷 勿念著 勿念空 勿念實 勿念輕 勿念重 勿念難 
勿念易 勿念深 勿念淺 勿念廣 勿念狹 勿念父 勿念母 勿念妻 勿念子 
勿念親 勿念疏 勿念憎 勿念愛 勿念得 勿念失 勿念成 勿念敗 勿念清 
勿念濁 斷諸念 一期念 意勿亂 常精進 勿懈怠 勿歲計 勿日倦 立一念 
勿中忽 除睡眠 精其意 常獨處 勿聚會 避惡人 近善友 親明師 視如佛 
執其志 常柔弱 觀平等 於一切 避鄉里 遠親族 棄愛欲 履清淨 行無為 
斷諸欲 捨亂意 習定行 學文慧 必如禪 除三穢 去六入 絕婬色 離眾受 
勿貪財 多畜積 食知足 勿貪味 眾生命 慎勿食 衣如法 勿綺飾 勿調戲 
勿憍慢 勿自大 勿貢高 若說經 當如法 了身本 猶如幻 勿受陰 勿入界 
陰如賊 四如蛇 為無常 為恍惚 無常主 了本無 因緣會 因緣散 悉了是 
知本無 加慈哀 於一切 施貧窮 濟不還 是為定 菩薩行 至要慧 起眾智

You've got to find what you love

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

春有百花秋有月

夏有涼風冬有雪

若無煩事掛心頭

便是人間好時節

《色.戒》電影劇情簡介

淪陷時期的上海，四位太太大白天開著強光燈打麻將，洗牌時一只只鑽戒光芒四射。女主人易太太的丈夫是汪偽情報機關首腦；三個女客中，有兩人的丈夫也在汪偽 政府任職。最年輕的“麥太太”王佳芝名義上是易太太的幹女兒，惟獨她沒戴鑽戒，但是她圖得亮汪汪的薄嘴唇嬌紅欲滴，一張秀麗的六角臉經得起無情的當頭照 射，酷烈的光與影更託出她的“胸前丘壑”。她跟易太太是兩年前在香港認識的，香港陷落後，麥先生的生意停瞭，王佳芝來上海跑單幫，被易太太留住在她家。

身材矮小的易先生站在他太太背後看牌，覷一個空子嚮佳芝發出一個暗號。佳芝即推說有事，向眾人告辭。她乘易家的汽車出去，吩咐司機開到一家咖啡館，打發司機回去。然後她進咖啡館打個電話，出來之後又雇三輪車到凱司令咖啡館停下，進去等人。

她等的是易先生。佳芝本是嶺南大學的學生。廣州淪陷前，嶺大搬到香港。汪精衛一行人抵達香港後，她和幾個男女同學懷著流亡學生的心情，有誌報國，遂自發組 織起來做業余特工，定下一條美人計：由一個女生去接近易太太，然後誘惑汪精衛身邊的紅人易先生，設法把他引出來再除掉他。充當香餌的，自然非學校劇團的當 家花旦王佳芝莫屬。可惜魚兒沒有吞鉤，計劃沒有成功。

珍珠港事變後，海路復通，這群學生轉學到上海，與一個國民黨特工搭上瞭綫。那位特工極力鼓勵他們繼續進行，於是王佳芝與老易又結上關係。今天正是設好瞭圈 套，要在約定地點刺殺易先生。佳芝等瞭半天，纔見一輛木炭汽車開來。一望而知是他的車。她出去，上車。易先生要司機開到福開森路去幽會，佳芝說附近有家 店，她想趁便去修一個耳環。易先生自然不能不奉陪。車於是折回，從義利餅幹行過街到平安戲院。對面就是那家凱司令咖啡館。

走進珠寶店，講定修配耳環一事之後，易先生主動提出要履行諾言，給佳芝買個鑽戒做紀念。印度老闆在店堂後身，兩層樓之間的一個閣樓上接待他們，挑出一個六 剋拉的粉紅鑽戒讓佳芝試戴。“光頭極足，亮閃閃的，異星一樣，紅得有種神祕感”。佳芝知道，刺客已埋伏好瞭。在“緊張得拉長到永恆的這一剎那間”，她自問 是不是有點愛上老易瞭。看到他臉上一種溫柔憐惜的神氣，她突然想：“這個人真是愛我的。”然而太晚瞭。她低聲說：“快走”。他立刻明白，跳下樓梯，奪門而 出。汽車吱的一聲尖叫。砰！車門聲還是槍聲？車開走瞭。

易先生回來瞭，即命令封鎖，把抓到的人，包括王佳芝，統統槍斃。他又站在他太太背後看牌，心裡想著王佳芝。“他覺得她的影子會永遠依傍他，安慰他。雖然她 恨他，她最後對他的感情強烈到是什麼情感都不相干瞭，只有感情。他們是原始的獵人與獵物的關係，虎與倀的關係，最終極的佔有。她這纔生是他的人，死是他的鬼。”